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This song breaks my heart in the best way, and it starts with those opening notes.
This album is their best one yet.

Lyrics:

Ground control
What do the books say about this one?
Now I think we’ve lost it all
There’s nothing to explain the distances anymore

All systems are critical
Can’t find my way back to you
Feels like there’s nowhere to go
I’m just out here waiting for you to say
Don’t be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Checking in
300 days with no reply now
I think I’ve lost my mind
There’s nothing keeping me from going outside anymore

My systems are critical
Gotta find my way back to you
Feels like I’m drifting alone
I’m just out here wishing that you would say
Don’t be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

We gotta make contact to make it out
We gotta make contact to make it
We gotta make contact to make it out
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Hey, I promise, you will be fine
Got the universe on your side
When you’re out in space
Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Don’t you be afraid, no
If you start floating away

Sorrow | Sleeping At Last

 

it feels like falling.
it feels like rain.
like losing my balance
again and again.
it once was so easy;
breathe in. breathe out.
but at the foot of this mountain,
i only see clouds.

i feel out of focus,
or at least indisposed
as this strange weather pattern
inside me takes hold.
each brave step forward,
i take three steps behind
it’s mind over matter –
matter over mind.

slowly,
then all at once.
a single loose thread
and it all comes undone.

where there is light,
a shadow appears.
the cause and effect
when life interferes.
the same rule applies
to goodness and grief;
for in our great sorrow,
we learn what joy means.

i don’t want to fight,
i don’t want to fight it.
but i will learn to fight,
i will learn fight
’til this pendulum finds equilibrium.

slowly,
then all at once.
the dark clouds depart,
and the damage is done.

so pardon the dust
while this all settles in.
with a broken heart,
transformation begins.

I Dare You To Move (Fore You Haven’t For A While Now)

I’ve been in a terrible mood lately, and I just seem to be exhausted all the time. Very unmotivated, and quite numb. If I could get away with it, I’d spend my whole time being a couch potato, and I think I’d be quite happy like that, too. For a while, at least. Possibly a long one. I guess I’m just feeling down, like I’ve been dragging a boulder with me everywhere I go. Frustrated, tired, and consequentially not in the mood to do anything, or go anywhere. Even typing this feels a bit like a chore, but- enough is enough! And I’ve had just about enough. I always go through these… dry spells of sorts. And getting out of them requires some motivation. Which is why this post is being typed, and hopefully shared with you.
I have a playlist titled “You’re Fine,” consisting of songs that at some point in my life have (lyrically, and musically) helped to motivate me and remind me that I’m, well, fine. That I’m doing just fine. I’m okay. That what I’m going through may not be okay, but I have it in me to be okay despite all that, or, that I have it in me to work to the point where I am okay. So I thought it would nice to share this playlist, just in case it might be of some help to you, too, in some way.

Be warned: it consists of multiple genres.

You’re Fine:

(I added a link to lyrics that aren’t included in the videos)

I might update this list every time a song makes its way to the playlist.

We’ll see!

Hope you’re doing well.

-Farah

 

Updated: 10 May, 2017

The Story of Becoming… The Hard Way

Today, while I was on my way to the gym, thinking about some things that I like to avoid thinking about (worrying), I was listening to ‘Test Drive’ by John Powell. It’s the song that plays when Hiccup is taking Toothless out on a test drive in How to Train Your Dragon. The scene is one of the most exciting I have ever seen, and the music itself is one of my favorites. Listening to it makes me feel like I’m the one on the dragon’s back, going fast with the wind in my hair, as the world lies beneath me, and the sky swallows me up. It’s a great song.

If you haven’t listened to it before, here you go (you’re going to need to for this post to make some sense, I suppose):

And it’s when those two things crossed paths (me worrying about future hardships while listening to Test Drive), that something wonderful occurred to me.

Okay. So, whenever I listen to Test Drive, I always have to endure the part from 1:20-1:52. It’s not my favorite part. In fact, when I first properly listened to the song (which was right after I first watched the movie), I kind of wished that part wasn’t in the song. Though I quickly chastised myself for having that thought because “this song is perfect, and nothing you say will ever change that.” But still, to this day, it always feels like I’m enduring that part (though this is consciously thought subconsciously). Like I’m waiting for it to finish so we could get back to the better parts of the song. But, today, while I was on my way to the gym, I realized that the part I look forward to the most is the part right after the one I have to endure. And then it occurred to me that the part I look forward to probably wouldn’t carry the same weight it does if it didn’t come right after the part I have to endure. And, I mean, the beginning of the song is great. I get goosebumps every time the song begins. It’s powerful, and it’s booming, but it’s not like the part I look forward to. The beginning of the song is smooth sailing. A great adventure. You feel free, and let-go. Like you’re safely free-falling into a gigantic sky. And then the part I have to endure starts to play, and it sounds loud, and panic-y, and like you’re sinking into solid ground, as if you were in a nightmare. It’s a bit scary.

But then.

Then, the part I look forward to starts to play, and it’s epic. Especially the part that starts playing at 2:00. It sounds like those moments when you get a sudden burst of strength to carry on doing what it is you were doing, despite the struggle. To fight back. To not let it bring you down. And it sounds exactly like the beginning of this song, but it’s intensified. It’s a statement. “I will not allow you take away from my being.” It’s thunderous, and it’s monumental. It’s heroic.

And, it was while I was thinking that, that I made a link between those thoughts and my worrying. Maybe my hardships are those 32 seconds of music I have to endure. Which would make the me after those hardships the part I look forward to in the song. And while the beginning of the song is great in and of itself (i.e. my life without hardships), I don’t think I’d like to miss the opportunity of being something greater.

It’s just a thought I had.