1- I think my friend doesn’t tell me what she thinks about the songs that I recommend to her because she doesn’t like them and does not want to lie about liking them to me.
2- Are dictionaries all the same? If I were to look up a word in two different dictionaries, would they both define the word the exact same way? Word for word?
3- I am glad I know where I stand with X. I am glad that our friendship is no longer a source of pain and insecurity for me. I am glad that it feels like it’s been ages since I had her up on that pedestal. I am glad I don’t feel any resentment towards her.
4- I am worried that I am becoming a person who just waits for, and expects, the people in her life to walk away. I am worried that I’m going to just accept this.
5- I am glad that I’m posting this. (Hopefully)
6- “Blurryface” is really good. I will not delve deeper into that statement.
7- I really need to improve my Arabic.
8- Is Zayn Malik leaving 1D really a stunt? Do I want to be the kind of person who cares?
9- On that note, I am looking forward to seeing how this “stunt” unfolds.
10- I am surprised that no one has really asked me why I haven’t continued to watch GoT.
11- It makes me happy that Buzz knew why without having to ask. It surprised me, actually. And I’m grateful that she let me know. “It’s okay. You know that, right? It… it doesn’t… it doesn’t have to- it doesn’t mean anything.” I’m still trying to figure out if it does, Buzz.
12- I’m happy that “Warm Foothills” by Alt-J was playing as I wrote that.
13- Thinking about the presentations I’m going to have to do next year makes me nervous- and grateful (really grateful) for this 3 month long summer vacation. God bless.
14- I’m excited for Ramadan. Did you guys know I’m Muslim?
15- I’m happy that Bog mentioned me on her instagram pic. It makes me smile.
16- But I’m sorta bummed that she didn’t reply to my awesome comment on said instagram pic.
17- For a while, I took my friendship with you for granted. I regret that. I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.
18- I worry that I’m a source of annoyance and frustration to my piano teacher. I never do things on time.
19- I sometimes feel that I come off as a bit intense, and I worry that it tends to put people off.
20- I am terrified of next year’s 2nd term.
21- I do not know if that previous statement is true. Which is weirding me out, because, how can I not know? It’s such a silly thing to not know. People are out there not knowing deeper things about themselves, and here I am not knowing this.
22- I feel like I’ve reached a point where I am neutral about most things. This worries me.
23- I think your relationship with people is sorta like a painting. Everything you do, no matter how big or small, is just a new coat of paint, or a different color added to the canvas. And it all counts. Every stroke of the brush, every drop of color. It all makes the painting what it is.
24- How short would I look next to someone who is 5’11 feet tall? (I am 5’4)
25- Sometimes I really think I can pull off this whole “being a lawyer” thing (one day). Other days, I don’t. Without the “really”.
26- Am I ever going to write a book?
27- I wonder how many strangers I’ve passed that have had a direct connection to me? Like, this is your dentist’s best friend. Or, that person over there is your teacher’s old school mate. Or, this person sitting across from you is going to be one of your closest friends in a couple of months, Farah. You are not prepared.
28- I wonder how much pain Mama and Daddy have had to hide from me and my sister.